Stream of Consciousness #1

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Every once in a while I have a whole bunch of random things I want to put on here but I feel like it’s a jumbled mass of half ideas and unfinished thoughts. Nothing is quite enough to flesh out an entire blog post, or to make it a teachable moment, or to use it to inspire someone. But it all needs to go somewhere, right? So once in a while I’m going to do a stream of consciousness post and they can all be collected and live together in randomness and obscurity.

I have a huge craving for sushi — have for weeks — and it’s a true testament to my laziness and my hermit tendencies this time of year that I haven’t found an excuse to go get some.

I know it’s cliche but I seriously don’t know where the year has gone. It blows my mind on a daily basis that is already winter, already December, already ALMOST CHRISTMAS.

My office is an absolute disaster and I think I’m going to use a blog post idea as an excuse to clean it. Yay for needing self-indulgent excuses to get anything done!

My hair is in pigtails right now — see below for proof — and I think it’s adorable but there’s always this lingering thought of the stereotypical douchebag who would see them and go “oh sweet, handles!” that stops me from wearing them in public.

I'M ADORABLE DAMMIT
I’M ADORABLE DAMMIT

I am way, WAY overdue for a new tattoo.

I really struggled with a boudoir shoot today. I let her shyness and nervousness and seeming lack of confidence get to me. I should have been able to bring her out of her shell more, and I think I did a bit, but I’m disappointed that I let it affect me so negatively.

I miss my brother SO MUCH. It’s been so long since we hung out one-on-one and I really, really miss it. I know we’ve both been so busy with work and personal issues and it’s no one’s fault… it’s just one of those things that I regularly feel nostalgic for.

I started an Instagram for this blog today and I feel really accomplished about it.

The blonde part of my hair is feeling super soft lately thanks to an awesome leave-in conditioner (that I will blog about soon). It was super coarse after being lightened and I was worried that it would be that way forever because I’m a total n00b when it comes to anything hair-related but thankfully my fears were not realized.

I have one crooked molar (I just made a typo and spelled that “moral” and there’s a lesson in there somewhere) and it’s driving me nuts but I don’t know if I could ever justify the insane price of Invisalign just to fix one tooth that is purely aesthetically unpleasant. But I am a pretty vain person and despite the fact that it’s been crooked for YEARS and everyone has loved me just the same (or have they!?!) it bothers me on a daily basis.

I’ve been making sure to empty my work inbox every evening and it feels SO GOOD to wake up to only FRESH e-mails and not ones that have been sitting there for days.

Working from home is really awesome but also really hard and I wish more people knew that. Again, I’ll be blogging about this more in-depth soon because PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW.

I need to bond more with my sister-in-law. It’s been 9 years and I know we are close in many ways but I think we could be so much more like sisters if we put in some more effort. She’s so awesome — I couldn’t have picked a better sister-in-law if I tried — and I want to take advantage of her awesomeness more often (if you’re reading this, HI BECKA!).